Tuesday, May 24, 2011

boxes and laundry and zeal . Oh. My.

Up to my ears in things to do, and lacking motivation...
Isn't that always the case?
We are moving tomorrow! Our first place, void of posters of our youth, figurines and pictures of times long ago... A place of our own. The bed is beckoning me to come back, to cast a blind eye on the laundry and ignore the boxes that lay empty around me. To sleep.

Not having a lot to say is not one of my strong suits, but today maybe it's for the best.

I was reading Romans 12 today and oh my goodness that chapter is jam packed full of amazing things.
9 Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. 10 Be devoted to one another in love. Honor one another above yourselves. 11 Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. 12 Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. 13 Share with the Lord’s people who are in need. Practice hospitality.  14 Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse. 15 Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn. 16 Live in harmony with one another. Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position.[c] Do not be conceited.
 17 Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everyone. 18 If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. 19 Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written: “It is mine to avenge; I will repay,”[d] says the Lord. 20 On the contrary:
   “If your enemy is hungry, feed him;
   if he is thirsty, give him something to drink.
In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head.”[e]
 21 Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

Seriously, I mean these are words to live by! I want to be a woman after God's own heart, consistently. Consistency is not always what I am good at but, I am learning, really learning.

Love and Grace,

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Water, water,water everywhere....

It looks like Oregon outside.
Or what I imagine oregon to be.
I hope to live there someday.
Pandora is playing sweetly in the background, my hair is a hot matted mess of product and sleep.
It is, almost noon.
My husbands parting words to me this morning were : "be productive"...
I. Have. A. Husband.

Simon &Garfunkel have started playing on my Pandora station and I am losing my artsy mid-morning mindset.
Song change. Focus. Me... Marriage.... Me ? Marriage? (sighs) Derek. A cornocopia of words couldn't touch on the subject of him. I knew I never wanted to be alone...but the thought of being with someone till you croak was slightly off putting. Not now. I have seen more grace, and love, and healing in the past two months, and it has been a thing of beauty. Realizing lately that I have burned a lot of bridges, and needed to be refined into a woman of my word, has been to say the least, hard. I no longer walk alone. Having a partner in crime, to hold me up, to help in the refining process... is beautiful.

Truly Blessed,

 P.S. This song came on my station... so good.